A journey of a mind

Another day spent in denial Indeed a disappointing fact The crazy foolishness of trial and error is lurking at the back

Well maybe this is something normal An ordinary human life And all the efforts to be formal Are simply leading to a fatal dive

Those wounds I managed to inflict From doubts and pointless thought debris Are making easy to predict My final words - I failed in loving me

Now that I've seen the future ending I feel I owe my soul a break put all the fears on status pending Let go and live for my own sake

I need a chance to raise my head Above the ocean of despair Not drowning but to swim instead And give myself time to repair

Refusing to be just a story That's laying under cold regrets I'll wear a flag "memento mori" And fully live till time resets

25.11.2019

Irina Pandeva

Bansko, Bulgaria