Another day spent in denial
Indeed a disappointing fact
The crazy foolishness of trial
and error is lurking in the back
Well maybe this is something normal
An ordinary human life
And all the efforts to be formal
Are simply leading to a fatal dive
Those wounds I managed to inflict
From doubts and pointless thought debris
Are making easy to predict
My final words - I failed in loving me
Now that I've seen the future ending
I feel I owe my soul a break
put all the fears on status pending
Let go and live for my own sake
I need a chance to raise my head
Above the ocean of despair
Not drowning but to swim instead
And give myself time to repair
Refusing to be just a story That's laying under cold regrets I'll wear a flag "memento mori" And fully live till time resets
25.11.2019
Irina Pandeva
Bansko, Bulgaria