Guilt has been on my mind for quite some time. Actually for years... I couldn't quite pinpoint what that feeling was. Not exactly anger, not sadness, not regret, but something that felt like a strange mixture of all three, not to forget fear. I feel guilty when I don't paint. I feel guilty when I don't spend enough time with my parents. I feel guilty when I don't answer the phone. And then when I forget to call back. And sometimes, even when I finally sit down to paint, I fee